Body Moving

I have some problems, mentally and physically. Some are new.

This happened last time and has happened again, just the PIDS - Post Ironman Depression Syndrome. The first couple weeks after an Ironman I want to sign up again. Basically, sign up and race all over again within the week. It is a feeling of unbelievable invincibility and accomplishment. A month post Ironman, I never want to do a race again. I just want to lay on the couch, wearing my Ironman medal and remember how great it all once was. I am 6 months away from my next Ironman and in a normal world of training would just now be starting to get ready and prepare for such a monstrous event. Starting over, going through the whole process again sounds terrible.

I have something very wrong with my knee. One thing about being an endurance athlete is you become hyper aware of your body. It is an awesome sense to have such a command over your body, I would compare it to driving a manual car versus an automatic. I have slowed down, back to a 10 minute pace to try and figure out if I can nail down what is wrong with my knee. It's like when the check engine light comes on every now the then, but won't stay on long enough that you feel you need to go to a mechanic.

I went for a 10 mile run last weekend with every intention to just blow out my knee, then it can be fixed. No luck. My knee acts like it is going to hurt usually every 30 minutes, but I can run just as I have been. It is odd and a bit frustrating. For the first time since I can remember I had to really work at running. The other day I started out on a run and my body felt like a bike, not something that wanted to move, but that required a good deal of effort to crank to go forward.

I have a marathon in less than 45 days. If I can't blow out my knee but then, maybe I'll qualify for the Boston Marathon. Or hopefully, just make the newspaper. They print the top 1000 men and women finisher's names and it is always fun to see your name in ink.